THEY’RE JUST SHAPES🔺🔹▪️

I’ve said this many times in class and have heard other teachers say it too. I say it as if to say, “hey, don’t judge yourself over that pose…they’re just shapes.”

The other day when I caught myself saying it, I also wondered if it was the wrong thing to say. Are you practicing yoga or just making shapes? Yes, you’re moving your bodies in and out of shapes, but are you struggling to create the shape or practicing mindfulness, awareness and presence inwhat you’re doing?

I read somewhere once, “figure out how to make money doing what you love to do”. Funny thing is I always say that I don’t make as much money as I did as a real estate agent (my previous career) but I LOVE what I do & it is so much more rewarding. That statement doesn’t work so well when paying off bills but I’ve learned how to slowly be more successful as a yoga teacher. I remember one year my accountant said to me, “Well, hey, you actually made money this year!” 🤦🏽‍♀️

It took me some time to find my passion and my dharma (purpose), though. I went to college for electrical engineering for all the wrong reasons—it looked good on paper, I’d be rich, I’d make my parents proud. But after a few years in school, I knew it wasn’t me. I transferred schools and dabbled in accounting, soon realizing I suck at math! 

One of the side jobs I had since high school was a columnist for VIA Times and local TV news reporter for Chicago Philippine News Reports, both Filipino news outlets. That was the first time I realized I could continue this, something I enjoyed, and actually make money from it! So I changed my major to Journalism and finally finished college. 🙌🏽

But that lasted a hot second. 🤦🏽‍♀️ I stayed at home to raise Casey, later got my RE license when he was a little older, and had some major life-changing experiences (insert #Survivor here). Yet, after all that, I knew there was something more for me to do.

Then one day @donbaeyoga said, why don’t you do #yogateachertraining ? I really didn’t see myself as a teacher AT ALL. I just wanted to learn more about the practice. But my teacher, Daren Friesen @madhavadas at @mokshayogachicago, gave me such great insight into all aspects of the practice and I knew I found my purpose. 

Now about ten years in, I’ve immersed myself physically and spiritually into the practice of Yoga. I’m so passionate about sharing a practice that’s taught me to be the best version of myself inside and out. I love when students discover that about themselves, too. 

I truly believe in the healing, transformative, and rejuvenating powers of #yoga. It drives me to support and encourage students to feel yoga’s embrace. I leave each of my classes happy and fulfilled from the personal connections with soul-full yogis from all walks of life. I’ve really hit the jackpot because I get to spend my time & energy on a practice and with people who fill my heart and feed my soul. 

Thank you for being a part of my journey and all the joy that has come with it. I’m not done yet, so look out for more from me.

This week I’ve been teaching about #pratyahara, one of the #8limbs of Patanjali’s #yogasutras so the peak pose has been #kurmasana or #tortoisepose in all its variations and modifications.

When we draw inward like a tortoise we can find the experience of pratyahara, sense withdrawal. From this place that is free from external distractions, we can rest in our #trueselves ,also known as #atman, to find eternal peace, more clarity and focus, and even connection to our center.

Turtles 🐢 represent the grounding energy of the Earth. They are slow, deliberate and purposeful. When they draw into their shells, it’s not cowardice but pulling inward to withstand the extreme dangers or disturbances without being knocked off center. This idea is the foundational concept of yoga.

When you get so caught up in the day to day, our connection to our center is lost. Like a turtle, take a moment to draw inward. Listen to the silent rhythm of your breath. Feel brave enough to stand in the middle of chaos and recognize your own powerful center.

How do YOU find stillness when everything around you is in constant motion? 🔸

In my asana & meditation classes, I often remind students to embrace the “purposeful pause” somewhere in between the perpetual to-do lists and jam-packed days. When you intentionally take a moment to pause, it doesn’t interrupt the activity (or, unfortunately, eliminate it) but it, instead, purposely interrupts the mental busyness by taking a moment to simply become more present and aware. It’s a great way to find space in the middle of all the momentum. 🔸

Maybe a “pause” for you might be to enjoy your morning coffee or tea without your phone or even a newspaper; or maybe pausing before you text/call someone back; or even pausing to take a deep breath before you move on to the next activity; or maybe it’s to pause in meditation. 🔸

I invite you to practice more “purposeful pauses” this week or begin to make the pauses part of your routine. Simply enjoy the moment in between. Notice if you find a shift in clarity or more presence.

My 30th high school reunion is coming up this October. Along with the “save the date” was a Reunion Form, basically a fill in the blank form—name, what are you up to now, etc. But the one question I’ve been stumped on is “What is Your Favorite High School Memory?”

I have lots of high school memories, but I can’t seem to come up with an actual favorite. I’m not sure if I can blame it on my old age and lack of long-term memory. After thinking about it, I don’t feel like I was quite present while in high school.

I went to an all-girls, Catholic high school. I remember always struggling to fit in, wanting to be like the popular girls, and finding ways to stand out amongst the rest. I was too self-absorbed in this that I feel like I missed out on really experiencing high school.

In the end, I academically did well in school, graduating with honors, some awards and towards the top of my class. But I remember feeling like I was still stuck in a cocoon just waiting to show my wings.

Jump forward 30 years and here I am. Not giving a shit if I fit in or if I’m popular. I feel good in my skin. I love what I do (which is teaching yoga). And I’m totally present.

I’ve crawled out of my cocoon and everyday I am spreading my wings.🦋

Fear 😳has been knocking at my door lately. Damn, Fear’s knock can be loud! It’s so loud that it’s drowning out my voice of courage.

I’ve been asked to LEAD a yoga teacher training and I’m scared as 💩! Me???? Sure, I can teach students but teach TEACHERS?!? .
Fear is bringing out my insecurities when I really shouldn’t be! Heck, I know this practice. I’m passionate about it. I embody and live it. I even run yoga retreats, for God’s sake! So why am I so scared?

Probably because I fear change. I’m afraid to fail. I’m afraid of not being a good enough leader.

Damn, that Fear.

I’m not going to answer that door. I’ll just sit on this decision and remind myself of what I have to offer and who I am.

Stay tuned.

This week my intention is to take things in slowly especially since I have a busy week ahead. “Joy comes to us in ordinary moments. We risk missing out when we get too busy chasing down the extraordinary.”—Brene Brown

In those moments when I realize I have a lot on my plate, I get anxious. Don’t we all? But when I recognize that anxiety, I stop to pause and take a few deep breaths. With that, I slow down the chase and, instead, I just take things in as they come, in stride.

It’s that easy. Just slow down.